Grey – A peek from under the wet blanket

It’s an art to live with pain… mix the light into gray.” – Eddie Vedder
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Listen, while I tell you a story of grey. The grey wraps around my soul in a haze of unwanted anxiety, a watered down black, like dark swirls in spoiled milk. These streaks of deteriorated joy cover my lens, my warm blanket soaked with fruitless tears. Feelings are sharp and cutting, nothing is gained by the sorrow. My grey love backfires, I point it toward her but the pain is set loose on my soul. This grey soaks me, in vain I try to keep myself warm in the breeze of cool emotion. Grey is my elixir of madness. I drink deep from the drought of darkness gone bad. Stormy clouds gather, a condensation of holiness evaporated from the lake of my soul, leaving it a lifeless puddle of unfathomable sorrow. Now you know of my affliction my curious companion, my lifelong condition of grey. Pray that you escape its mesmerizing effects and that you with the brightness of healthy hope, avoid this quicksand of a tortured mind.

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Wisdom’s Seven Pillars – Pillar #3 – Seriousness

“Wisdom has built her house, she has carved out her seven pillars:” Proverbs 9:1. The aim of this series is to present a non-cliche, non-religious point of view of wisdom. I do subscribe to some religious interpretations of the subjects addressed, but wish to here, only point out the common understanding of the principles.  

– Helen Keller, (1880-1968) 

A continually full stomach, a life absent from suffering, void of enemies, full of fun and hedonistic pleasure, will make me soft and foolish, spoiled and demanding, empty of wisdom and hardened to its courting calls. Sorrow, the winds of adversity, great pressure and trouble, will keep me sharp and on my game. Seriousness is a gift born from suffering. Desire suffering over a life of ease and fullness. However it works in my life, wisdom requires a serious attitude to come of age. Foolish entertainments and company will corrupt good wisdom and good habits. I must beware of long periods of ease and content, it will likely fuel my descent away from wisdom. Embracing the hard times of life will make me fertile for the seeds of wisdom to take root, guarantee their fruitfulness, and an atmosphere ideal for their growth.

Wisdom’s Seven Pillars – Pillar #3 – Seriousness

“Wisdom has built her house, she has carved out her seven pillars:” Proverbs 9:1. The aim of this series is to present a non-cliche, non-religious point of view of wisdom. I do subscribe to some religious interpretations of the subjects addressed, but wish to here, only point out the common understanding of the principles.  

– Helen Keller, (1880-1968) 

A continually full stomach, a life absent from suffering, void of enemies, full of fun and hedonistic pleasure, will make me soft and foolish, spoiled and demanding, empty of wisdom and hardened to its courting calls. Sorrow, the winds of adversity, great pressure and trouble, will keep me sharp and on my game. Seriousness is a gift born from suffering. Desire suffering over a life of ease and fullness. However it works in my life, wisdom requires a serious attitude to come of age. Foolish entertainments and company will corrupt good wisdom and good habits. I must beware of long periods of ease and content, it will likely fuel my descent away from wisdom. Embracing the hard times of life will make me fertile for the seeds of wisdom to take root, guarantee their fruitfulness, and an atmosphere ideal for their growth.