Survival Guide: Rape Part 3 – Dealing with Effects: Fear

This series presents different facets of dealing with mental illness and emotional trauma. I’m not a psychiatrist but have been with numerous professionals. I’m not a counselor, but I’ve been through hundreds of hours of professional, state, federal, private, religious and secular counseling. These article’s will present a layman’s view and I’ll color them with the stark reality of having lived through them. Each part of the series will include the particulars of how it affects the survivors and my personal experiences of rehabilitation. I call it a Survival Guide. Within each article I’ll include important links for those who affected by the subjects covered, please use these links if you need help!

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There are no ‘if’s’ in God’s world. And no places that are safer than other places. The center of His will is our only safety – let us pray that we may always know it!”
Corrie ten Boom, The Hiding Place
Safety is a relative term, as I can feel safe in places others can’t. The reverse is true as well, there are common things that cause me to feel threatened. Losing the feeling of safety is one of the effects of being the victim of a violent crime, especially a sexual assault. I despise this fear, and long for safety. Knowing better than to place my trust in a relationship, a group, a law, or even my own devices, I find that there is only one place I am completely sheltered, in the arms of my Father. When I am spending time with Him, He protects me and holds me, comforting me in my fears. There the feeling of safety is irrelevant, for in that moment I am truly safe. Who can touch me when His strong arms wrap my soul in warmth and his unending love comforts my conspiracy laden mind? Feelings of being safe will come if I discipline myself stay in that place where no man and no obscure terror can prevail. In that place I will sleep and laugh at the derision of men. 
 If you need help or need to talk to click these links: Pandora’s Project, RAINN
Also published in Broowaha Magazine 

 Survival Guide: Rape Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 , Part 4, Part 5

 
 
“There are no ‘if’s’ in God’s world. And no places that are safer than other places. The center of His will is our only safety – let us pray that we may always know it!”
Corrie ten Boom, The Hiding Place
Image Credit: 2sad-eyes

Safety is a relative term, as I can feel safe in places others can’t. The reverse is true as well, there are common things that cause me to feel threatened. Losing the feeling of safety is one of the effects of being the victim of a violent crime, especially a sexual crime. I despise this fear, and long for safety. Knowing better than to place my trust in a relationship, a group, a law, or even my own devices, I find that there is only one place I am completely sheltered, in the arms of my Father. When I am spending time with Him, He protects me and holds me, comforting me in my fears. There the feeling of safety is irrelevant, for in that moment I am truly safe. Who can touch me when His strong arms wrap my soul in warmth and his unending love comforts my conspiracies laden mind? Feelings of being safe will come if I discipline myself stay in that place where no man and no obscure terror can prevail. In that place I will sleep and laugh at the derision of men.

Also published in Broowaha Magazine 

– See more at: http://www.opinionsofeye.com/2012/02/hiding-place-notes-on-fear-and-safety.html#sthash.niljSKB9.dpuf

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