Little Pills

“It is not seen as insane when a fighter, under an attack that will inevitably lead to his death, chooses to take his own life first. In fact, this act has been encouraged for centuries, and is accepted even now as an honorable reason to do the deed. How is it any different when you are under attack by your own mind?” 

These little pills, make me all of me.

Many times, taking one

and sometimes three

I shake my head, tsk tsk, I’m not awake

I sleep with my eyes open

its not all fake

This daylight walker needs to really know

these little pills

aren’t a pretty show

In the noisy stillness of slippery caverns

my madness breeds

like drunks in taverns

I’m held aloft by the chemicals they give

Is this really me,

or the little pills I hid?
Prescriptions are given to those with mental illnesses that produced a variety of effects both positive and negative. The thought occurs to me, is this the real me when I take the pills? Or is this another me produced by them? Do I want to be the real me? or a product of chemicals? Can I be me when under the influence of these treatments? This battle of identity is the primary reason I don’t take psychotropic medicines (even those prescribed), I just wanna be the crazy, insane me. There are however some conditions that are treated with meds which, if the subject is to be in society at large, need to be adhered to. Always seek professional help about going off your meds. 
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Words. Deep thoughts. Eccentric. Madness. Lover. Dark. Music. Melancholic. Beaches. Addict. Primal. Curious. Dichotomy. Gemini. "I am a series of small victories and large defeats, and I am as amazed as any other that I have gotten from there to here." - Charles Bukowski "I think and think and 99 times I'm wrong. But on the 100th time, I'm right." - Einstein

2 thoughts on “Little Pills”

  1. I have learned to deal with the roller=coaster I have been on for awhile, hoping I will adapt and overcome, as one can adapt to physical pain. For the most part, I have always been consistently happy and comfortable with myself. I have learned to embrace my insanity as it is the insanity that keeps me going. As was said by someone, it's the pain and the passion that will keep us alive some day. Better to be yourself and be appreciated and understood by someone for who you really are. It's like makeup, at some point you will have to take it off and wonder if you even recognize yourself? I do agree though, that there are those out there who need their treatment for the safety of themselves and others. Do no harm, should be the golden rule. Otherwise, lol, there are those times when we should enjoy a “little cray” in our lives.

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  2. I have learned to deal with the roller=coaster I have been on for awhile, hoping I will adapt and overcome, as one can adapt to physical pain. For the most part, I have always been consistently happy and comfortable with myself. I have learned to embrace my insanity as it is the insanity that keeps me going. As was said by someone, it's the pain and the passion that will keep us alive some day. Better to be yourself and be appreciated and understood by someone for who you really are. It's like makeup, at some point you will have to take it off and wonder if you even recognize yourself? I do agree though, that there are those out there who need their treatment for the safety of themselves and others. Do no harm, should be the golden rule. Otherwise, lol, there are those times when we should enjoy a “little cray” in our lives.

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